I've been bent over for a while, and man. I need to work on my stamina.

Wait, let me explain.

Considering my failed attempts at time management, I've tried simply to focus my energies into accomplishing a specific task that has backlogged into a pile of unfinished-ness, mocking me as it lies unfinished on my desk.

Keybies that are waiting to be sprayed.

And so, setting aside my other (in retrospect, easier to accomplish things on my 5-times-rewritten to-do list) tasks, I tackled the pile of keybies, painting, scratching, cleaning and lining. I was concentrated. I was focused. I was high on marker ink and correction fluid.

7 hours later, my eyes burning, my back hurting, the pile itself has lessened.

But it is still unfinished.

D:

*wails*


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Just when I got myself back outta my pit and found something to look forward to thanks to a choco- cream-chip frap and a the sweetest walnut brownie I get royally fucked.

Today is the submission of all my FILDLAR papers, including my translation, translation annotation, and a reaction paper.

Upon coming to school to finish my translation annotation, since I've finished my translation and all I had to do was translate my reaction paper into tagalog, I realized I LEFT MY TRANSLATION FILE AT HOME.

Couldn't ask anyone there to email it to me here, either. I've tried.

So will go home after LITEHIS, and come back again to submit the fucking thing. I'm only thankful that my FILDLAR prof will be letting me submit within the day.


And dammit, I cursed.


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Not anytime soon, anyway.

Still have an INTROPSY paper due tom, finals in TREDTRI, a translation annotation due on Thursday, a comprehensive exam on Friday and a WORLDS2 paper due today. There are membership cards that need printing, keybies and designs that want drawing, and rooms that need cleaning everyday.

Hootenanny.

I don't think I'd be able to appreciate bumming out anymore. I'm too far gong into working. It's strange. I've always had a concept of an end, like a light at the end of my working tunnel, but now it's so dim I don't even think I see it. It's like life's become this huge piece of work.

Words that say it will only get worse or words that say that this is nothing will not be appreciated. Words aren't even appreciated on a general basis now, I find. The fox was right. Words are a source of misunderstanding.

This is a monologue.

I only want hugs. Can't misunderstand those.



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It's only after I decided I was going to be more responsible (read: I do homework earlier than the night before its deadline and reading the text beforehand) that I realized I've been more stressed than I ever felt before.

Maybe it's actually the workload. Maybe it's a lot and I'm feeling stupid. I won't really know. I doubt I'll bother wondering why after I realized my me-time is at an all time low. I feel guilty doing anything without a backlog of stuff I'm supposed to be doing, now more than ever. I used to be able to sneak in keybie time, and journal time.

Now I'm doing journal time because it's keeping my head on straight. Really.

I can't remember what day it is. If someone told me today was Monday, hell, I'd believe. All days are almost the same to me. I can't even use my usual frame of mind when I'm bombarded with work, which was to take each day at a time, and take every deadline met and passed as a step closer to then end of all the work.

Now deadline that passes is just a day closer to more deadlines. GWAH.

Which is why both my Monday holidays are probably going to go up in academic smoke. Fark it all.

*seeks more respite in more Red vs. Blue*

On a side note, does anybody know how to browse using the wifi at DLSU? I've brought Caboose to school and he detects the signal pretty well, but I can't surf. Is there a step-by-step I should do? Is there an office I should visit to register Caboose or something?



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I really, really wish I had a laptop...

Darn you HP, why can't you frigging supply the frigging Mini-note package with the frigging Linux OS alfriggingready?! I don't want to spend an extra 5k on a Vista I'd be uninstalling anyway!!



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