Sometimes I wish I were a robot. If I were a robot, I could very easily set my priorities with a bit of programming. Discipline would become ridiculously easy, because I'd never get bored with what I have to do, never get tired, or know any better than to finish what I was supposed to do in the first place.

If I were a robot I'd never feel tired; I'd just plug in somewhere, and in a while recharge and be as good as new (or I could even work while I'm charging). I could go on and on fulfilling my obligations to everyone I know, even as a student, and never think of anything else but getting the thing done. I'd be able to accomplish so much.

Just as long as people won't know I was a robot, no one would complain that my heart wasn't in it, because robots don't have hearts. That's the beauty of being a robot; there would be no such thing as disappointment, or expectations, because a robot does and just doesn't care otherwise. I could even make them feel better by programming myself to be whatever they want. If some people did find out I was a robot, they can take as much advantage as they want and never feel guilty. No one feels guilty about robots.

Because if I were a robot I can be repaired over and over, and become better and better with upgrades. If I do something wrong, I can make a log of it and never do it again and use logic to approach any problems properly and without bias. I can shield myself with firewalls to avoid anything that does me harm, and delete anything undesirable from my memory. I can become selfless, useful, and perfect.

And then, when I'm overused to the point of irreparability, I can be easily disposed of, and I can peacefully (though for a robot there's no such thing as 'peace' or chaos', just 'is') cease to exist.



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